God's Gift

My days are filled with laughter,
My days are filled with love,
I’ve been blessed with such wonderful things
I certainly feel His love from above.

Things happen as they should,
Things happen for a reason,
Our life plays out God’s plan,
And it certainly tis the season.

He walked you into my life
He set our hearts to bind,
I had finally given up looking,
Then He revealed you at the right time.

We set out on the path together
Our hearts bound together with love,
Now I can’t imagine my life without you
You’ve been blessed from God above.

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Completed ~ 10/21/11

Moonlight

By the light of the moon,
I roam here and there,
for I am everywhere...

By the light of the moon,
my heart beats strong
and my strides are long...

By the light of the moon,
my dreams soar high
and my spirit will fly...

By the light of the moon,
I can clearly see,
for I am forever free...

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Completed ~ 7/17/11

Dead or Alive? Alone & Lost...

Sometimes I wonder if I'm alive or dead
contemplating the many thoughts running through my head
always living my life on my own
doing things that others condone.

Chitter, chatter, whispering voices behind my back
pushing against my eardrum like a thumb tack
but I keep on moving despite all the friction
I keep pushing forward as if on a mission.

A mission to find what I've always been searching for
searching for that life of peacefulness and so much more
moving forward, going backwards, turning round and round
wanting so much for my soul to soar but feeling forever bound.

Yet feeling cold and alone inside my dark mind
still wondering if I'm dead or alive
the chitter chatter continues as fake smiles shine bright
my eyes closing and losing all sight

Yet the whispers still pass through my thoughts
forever feeling alone, forever feeling lost...

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Completed ~ 10/14/10

Solitary Traveler

Trippin’ and stumblin’ through life
Always striving to find myself
Lost my way more than twice
No matter how many times I’ve knelt

Temptation around every turn
Calling my name, testing my strength
Too many times I’ve been burned
Causing my constant arm’s length

The wall’s been built and guarded
My heart’s now made of stone
Always feeling disregarded
Among all, I’m still alone

I know one day I’ll find my way
The way to my lost forsaken soul
There will be no more games to play
And no more losing control

One day the time will come
To melt my heart of stone
And the walls will then crumble
And my soul will be as one…

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Completed ~ 06/09/10

Dancing In The Clouds

I close my eyes
Drift to a place high
Dancing in the clouds
With you, how profound
Dancing beside me
With your white wings
Smiling so brightly
Together again finally

Perception of time
No longer binds
My heart's desire
To take me higher
To be beside you
If only you knew
How strongly I felt
In your arms I melt

Here we are now
Dancing in the clouds
No cares in my mind
With you my soul shines
Your wings flutter
And the moves don't matter
Just to be here
Just to be near

A tear escapes
And the dream fades
My heart grows heavy
But I still believe
There'll be a day
We'll find our way
For our souls are bound
And we'll be dancing in the clouds…

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Written ~ 05.24.10

Struggling With Fear

Fear is that constant fight
Suffocating all that I am
Pushing with all my might
Struggling with who I am

Fear grabs a hold tightly
Trying to conquer my soul
Pulling ever so slightly
To kill my spirit is the goal

Trying to hold me back
Fear restricts my reach
Like a full blown attack
Draining my strength like a leech

Stripping away my sanity
Stripping away my happiness
Fear holds no boundaries
Constant feeling of helplessness

Wanting to fight back
Scared to let it go
Knowing what I'll lack
Fear is what I know

Every day living with fear
Feeling of incomplete
Wiping away all my tears
Never admitting defeat...

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Written ~ 11.28.09

Dreaming Of...

When you're not near
I feel so alone
Your voice I hear
Whispering in my mind

Hoping and waiting for you
Confused and wondering
If you love me too
Or am I just blind?

Smile brightens my life
Though you may not know
Eyes piercing life a knife
Your touch, gentle and kind

I close my eyes
Dream of what could be
Then wake and realize
You were only in my mind

Still so far away
Not close enough to touch
Like that you'll always stay
A heart I'll never find...

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Completed ~ 11.23.09

The Cross I Bear

I still ask, why me?
Lord, why was I spared?
Was this meant to be?
A frightening nightmare...

That one fatal night
Changed the lives of three.
For one lost the fight,
And now his soul is free.

The other lost time
And didn't know why
Lucky to be alive
In the hospital he lie.

Then there was me
The only concious one
Awake and alive at the scene
In shock and wanting to run.

The ordeal is long past
But confusion still within.
How long will this last?
Will the pain always win?

Was this Your wakeup call?
From Heaven You reached down
And as I began to fall
Caught me before I hit the ground.

Was stubborn and never listened
Blocked You out for so long
My life's path a downward spin
Knowing but never caring of my wrongs.

You pushed and pulled
At my heart from within
Yet I was always fooled
by the devil and sin.

Then out of nowhere
All three collide
A life changing scare
On that one fatal night...

I didn't know then
Yet it is only fair
Forever pain without and within
This is the Cross I must bear...

©
Completed ~ 11.11.09